Just spent close to an hour searching online for anything about my sister and found two accounts of her, one on Instagram and it's private, and one on Twitter and there is only one post and it says, "New life" in Russian and with a smiley and it's posted later same year when I came out publicly about our father abusing me and my sister telling me I'm crazy and ending all ties with me online and deleting all her accounts. I'm sure she blocked me everywhere she could as I can't find her on Facebook or anywhere else, and it's no use asking my step-mom how I can find her because she tells me she doesn't want to talk to me and so I should leave her alone, and so I do, but damn, for some reason it's really hard. I called my step-mom yesterday to wish her happy birthday and found out that my sister is drawing comics and selling them, and I got so excited and then I got so depressed and I'm still wallowing in it today. I wish I could see what she is making. I wish I could tell her she is awesome. I wish I could share it with you all. I wish I could read her comics. I wish I wish I wish.