I've been pondering for a while what to write about this time, as several things happened this week, all of them sorta kinda pointing in the same direction. Number one, I had a breakdown, thinking I suck, my writing sucks, and I wanted to quit. Like, for 1 hour I wanted to quit, for real. Then I got really mad for thinking that and wrote 5K words. I got over it. But other little things kept happening, and I started thinking, what the hell? Why do I suddenly doubt myself? I'm on my 3rd novel, it's supposed to be easier? I told everyone it's easier? Now what? What is going on? And I think I know. I'm guessing I'm graduating to some other level, not so much in my writing, but in this tricky thing called self-belief. I stopped being afraid, I know I can write, I'm still not satisfied with my writing (I hear writers never are), but I'm not a total newbie anymore. And what happened is, at one point I got so relaxed and so myself, that I thought, oh my God, what if people think I'm wrong? Who do I think I am, to feel so comfortable? I'm doing it wrong, I'm doing everything wrong! And it kept going like this in my head in circles. I imagine you had something like this happen to you too. I think it happens just so you can get over it and get to the next stage, to be okay with how you are write, YOUR WAY. I think that's what it is.